1st Race

So as many have noticed lately, I’ve lost a little weight.  It has truly been transforming.  As Andy often points out, I now have confidence.  This confidence has helped me see who I am in Jesus too.  I feel like I better understand the verse “old things are passed away.  Behold, all things are become new.”  I am a new creation in Christ and in my new body.

The point of all this being:  I signed up for a 5K.  It was something I never had a desire to do.  I am not a runner.  I hate running.  But I needed motivation to hit my 3^rd of 4 goals. (Which I am <1 lbs away from.) So talking to one of my friends one night I mentioned a 5K and she found us a race (thank you Carla).  As soon as I signed up I cried.  Not tears of sadness mind you.  Tears of joy.  Tears of happiness.  Tears of Awe.  Awe that I could do something I never thought possible.  Something that wasn’t possible last year at this time. 

But also in those tears were fear.  Fear of Failure.  I am terribly afraid of failing.  I don’t sign up for things that I could possibly fail at.  I lived 32 years by the motto: If I know I won’t win, than why bother trying. It’s what held me back in High School.  It’s the cloud that has hung over my head all my life.  It’s what I gave up 10 months ago when I decided to be healthy.

So as I set out on Saturday for my 5 MILE run (oops, it turned out to be 5 miles, not a 5K).  I officially conquer my motto.  I conquer my fear.  I turn over a new leaf.  And even if I don’t come in first (or hopefully not last), I know that I ran this for me.  I did this with the strength that God gave me.  

One of my favorite things about training for this race has been tinkering with my play list.  I love music.  I always have a tune running through my head.  So getting my playlist wasn’t about finding songs, it was about finding the right songs.  So, I tinkered quite a bit.  Some of them just make me smile.  Some of them are about the words.  Some of them are about the beat.  Some of them just make me want to keep moving. So here is my list for Saturday. 

King of Anything by Sara Bareilles

Forever by Chris Brown  (Come on, who couldn’t love Jim and Pam’s wedding song?)

Two Princes by Spin Doctors (takes me back to High School)

Firework by Katy Perry (I hate Katy Perry, but the words are good to this song)

Waiting for the End by Linkin Park (“wishing I had strength to stand”)

Perfect by Pink (“change the voices in my head, make them like me instead”)

Breathless by the Corrs (this song was popular when Sara was born so I have it for that reason.)

Save Tonight by Eagle Eye Cherry

Hollywood by Michael Buble

Your Love is my Drug by Ke$ha-  (This song is a joke between Andy and I)

Crawl by Chris Brown (“So we’ll crawl until we can walk again, we run until we’re strong enough to fly.”)

The Climb by Miley Cyrus (I know it’s a teeny bopper song, but very inspirational)

Because We Can by Fatboy Slim (Because I can, can, can.)

Move Along by the All American Rejects (recommended by Phil)

I’m a Believer by Smash Mouth (recommended by Carla)

Gettin’ Jiggy Wit it by Will Smith (right back to High School again.)

Waiting for the End by Linkin Park  (Because I will still be waiting for the end.)

Forever by Chris Brown

Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars (I know it’s stupid, but when I hear this I remember that this is how God feels for me.)

Love Song by Sara Bareilles- cool down